HOW LONG SHOULD I STAY LIKE THIS?

Just something that i feel like sharing. i guess everybody have been hurt before. maybe some of you have gone through a point where you are too hurt you can't sleep and you cry every night over the matter. you will keep on thinking about the problem every night and it affects your health at last.... well, i'm just as ordinary as you ppl out there. i've came to that point before too.. and i almost lost my mind.. what i meant is, i almost go crazy. why do i say that... because i was crying and talking to myself... repeating a few sentence...'why am i crying?', 'I'm worthless', 'i'm going to be crazy..' i feel like shouting out loud and yet not dare to do so coz i'm afraid that my family will know about my depression. what cause me to be like this ? i was hurt by someone that i love very very much..
i've been in this situation for about 2 weeks.. i'll cry at night and wake up in the morning and act as normal... no one knows i'm under depression.. i'll laugh and joke at work,college & church but when i'm back in my room at night in my bed... i'll cry again..
till one night... i feel so tired of it... i pray and call out to God... i told Him i want to be set free from this hurt and i want to become myself and stop this crying. I could really feel his presence that moment and i feel myself comfort by the Lord. He take away my burden and let me carry His instead. I find His burden for me is light. I'm healed completely and the next morning when i wake up i'm totally back to my normal self and i had stoped crying at night.

i'm sharing this is because i hope that anyone out there who felt the same can be like me too. when bad things happen... not to worry cause everytime something bad happens good things will soon be coming. one's won't stay in bad situation all the while cause life is a rollercoaster. How long is the period of hurt is you who will be able to decide ... only you can let yourself to be unhappy for as long as you wish... no one can help you to stand up if you do not wish to. example: when u fall, i can offer my hand to help you up. but it's you.. who decides whether or not to take my hand and stand up again.

I didn't mean that u can't be unhappy or cry.. everyone have the rights to grief over things but do not stay in griefs forever. there are many things in life that deserves your smile. I once read and email saying that, 'SMILE... for you may not know that there's someone is admired by your lovely SMILE' and broken heart can hurt badly but at the same time strenghten someone too.