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So today is my big day....hmm... what is my feeling?? happy? yes.. receive a lot of sms from frens... got 2 sms on 31 Oct 12.05 am, Ai Leng and Pui Mun. one call at 12.10 am from a long-time-no-see fren, Yean Ching. then in the morning got three sms and afternoon got 2 sms. and just now i check got 2 e-cards from my bestfren from uk. and 2 early birthday cards, one from my best fren in uk and the other from 2 new college frens... just recently got a msg from a fren in msn wishing me happy birthday.... ohhh.. not to forget some other greetings in church too....

Presents: mom = computer table, bro&sis = office highback chair, best fren = 1000+ paper glowing stars, church frens, 3 women = one teddy bear in a love box, cell leaders = unknown present (not yet give me)

that's all the present list at the moment....

one thing i miss this birthday is a birthday cake....well it doesn't feel like birthday if without a cake.... suppose that i promised my bro to take him out with my family and i treat them a big dinner, but my bro and his girl friend went to genting highland last night and then my mom cooked already and we ended up eating at home.... supposed that my grandma will be able to celebrate my b'day with me but this afternoon she received a call saying that her God's bro going to pass away soon so she has to rush to hospital to see him go.....

though i might not have much money this month but yet i was hoping that the whole family can go out with me and have a nice dinner with me but aiks.... i know my mom don't want me to waste money since she knows that i don't have much left.... T_T... i stopped work for two weeks so no salary for two weeks....aiks... i haven't collect my salary yet since i haven't went back to office.... this coming tuesday is my last paper and i have no mood to study for it and i haven't even touch on it...aiks.... T_T....

Cake is one of the thing that i miss for my birthday, another thing is i miss my best fren in uk.... well but next year i'll be able to celebrate my birthday with her again....

i really feel a bit lonely this year during my birthday, maybe too many things happen on this year aiks.... but i really happy for those who remember my birthday and send all the sms and wishes and also presents to me... still feel lonely... like another ordinary day... no big deal at all...
though my birthday is today and i received presents but all also early presents... so i feel nothing at all..aiks... maybe i'm still worried about the coming last paper... aiks.... hai....

Lastly, Happy Birthday to ME..!!!! thank God that i'm one year older and God keeps me save through another year....

ohhh forgot to mention how i spend my birthday, went to church this morning and afternoon had lunch with church frens. then i went home and watch vcds with my sister and grandma. late afternoon i sent my grandma off to take taxi and had a short walk alone back home. then i continued my vcds..... till late at nite and my mom cooked some 'sui kau'. and she baked a ready-made small pizza for me... hihihi....aiks... i really grateful for all the hard jobs she did for me...really love her so much and thanks for everything... maybe later tonight i might study a bit..hehehe... probably not... i think... not really in the mood...okay.. that's all for the boring day experience... ciao....muaks