OH...A NEW BREAK THROUGH!!

Well..not yet a break through but gonna be coming soon... just now i'm just back from mamak. ne of my cell member Mei Lynn is suggesting that we should go for some exercise for once or twice a week. So we start planning what we shall do for weekends. so the plan is that we go to her place (apartment) to do swimming, tennis, gym, or even sauna (not sure whether is working). Then sunday morning before church we plan to go jogging at bukit jalil park and have our breakfast picnic there (after jogging). of course the breakfast would be as nutricious as possible. we plan to start the plan by next week if possible.. i'm actually so excited about doing it cause i was hoping that all this exercise can help me to slim down and that's a break through for me.. hahahha..... we've been talking like we are going to save up money to go shopping by the end of the year to buy our new year dress... hahahhaha... we talk as if for real.. of course me must make sure it comes true... because when you are trying to get things done i think 3 are better than 1... hahaha... hope that we can manage to encourage ourselves and have a new break through...maybe by next year i can slim down a lot.... wish me all the best...YEAH!!!!

RECEIVED MY B'DAY PRESENT

Oh I've received my earliest birthday present...hahahah.. i'm so happy oh... my best friend had given me a BIG bottle of folded paper stars oh... she told me inside got 1111 biji of stars. wah... the stars can even glow in the dark..but not that clear oh... but i think i like mine better (the star pjt. that i've finished) I haven't passed it to her yet cause i need to add in some more stars... mine got more stars it's a total of 1205 stars hahahhaa...more than her 94 biji...kekekke
but i folded extra oh... cause actually i should had finished earlier but i felt that the first batch of the project is not nice so i bought another type of stars and folded again... the first batch got 909 biji...excluded 300 something i had given to my grandma (grandma came to my house and saw the stars.. she's a bit jealous so i go and buy a samller bottle and put some in it... didn't know that the small bottle also can fit 300 ++ biji of stars... T_T poor thing oh....but i really felt so relief when i can finally put the stars in the box and pass to my best friend next time i see her...hahhaha....
I suddenly felt that i'm starting to miss my stars...T_T cause it's too beautiful... Opps... if my best friend see this new updated diary i'm sure she's gonna say something bad...hahahhaha....but i still insist on posting this diary .... hahhahahahah i'm so evil... ;P

HOW LONG SHOULD I STAY LIKE THIS?

Just something that i feel like sharing. i guess everybody have been hurt before. maybe some of you have gone through a point where you are too hurt you can't sleep and you cry every night over the matter. you will keep on thinking about the problem every night and it affects your health at last.... well, i'm just as ordinary as you ppl out there. i've came to that point before too.. and i almost lost my mind.. what i meant is, i almost go crazy. why do i say that... because i was crying and talking to myself... repeating a few sentence...'why am i crying?', 'I'm worthless', 'i'm going to be crazy..' i feel like shouting out loud and yet not dare to do so coz i'm afraid that my family will know about my depression. what cause me to be like this ? i was hurt by someone that i love very very much..
i've been in this situation for about 2 weeks.. i'll cry at night and wake up in the morning and act as normal... no one knows i'm under depression.. i'll laugh and joke at work,college & church but when i'm back in my room at night in my bed... i'll cry again..
till one night... i feel so tired of it... i pray and call out to God... i told Him i want to be set free from this hurt and i want to become myself and stop this crying. I could really feel his presence that moment and i feel myself comfort by the Lord. He take away my burden and let me carry His instead. I find His burden for me is light. I'm healed completely and the next morning when i wake up i'm totally back to my normal self and i had stoped crying at night.

i'm sharing this is because i hope that anyone out there who felt the same can be like me too. when bad things happen... not to worry cause everytime something bad happens good things will soon be coming. one's won't stay in bad situation all the while cause life is a rollercoaster. How long is the period of hurt is you who will be able to decide ... only you can let yourself to be unhappy for as long as you wish... no one can help you to stand up if you do not wish to. example: when u fall, i can offer my hand to help you up. but it's you.. who decides whether or not to take my hand and stand up again.

I didn't mean that u can't be unhappy or cry.. everyone have the rights to grief over things but do not stay in griefs forever. there are many things in life that deserves your smile. I once read and email saying that, 'SMILE... for you may not know that there's someone is admired by your lovely SMILE' and broken heart can hurt badly but at the same time strenghten someone too.

FIRST TIME TO HALO CAFE

tonight i've been to the halo cafe at citrus park... there are 2 guys and a girl singing.. their voices is very sweet (girl), sexy yet cool (guys) . i ordered a mango milk tea about 10 bucks.. (WAHHH!!) the drink is cream in colour.. there's a nanas put at the side of the glass as decoration.. though it's a mango drink but it taste like nanas... the drink is okay... guess who am i with...?? i'm with my bro's girlfriend.. ermm.. and my sis too... but my sis sat for a while then cabut and go to hang out by herself at the new parkson. i had a 2 1/2 hours chat with my bro's gf about she and my bro... hahhaha... i learn a lot from her... kekekek....my bro sometimes is very easily get jealous... i feel that my bro's gf is like a big sister to me.. she's older than me and more matured than me.. she knows a lot of things more than i do and i get a lots of advice from her.... i felt so happy that i have a good 'tai sou' and i have an extra person to go and seek advice.

ALL PROJECT DONE!!!

What a relief.. finally i've finished all the project i've started.. i feel so great and light as if i have put down a big bag that i've been carrying... i've done with the scarf, i've done with the hat, and i've done with the stars.. what am i going to start next... i think my coursework should be next . i'll have 3 more weeks before the submission date... i hope i can manage to collect enough info...

1 PROJECT DONE!!

Hi all.. my knitting project finally done...hahahaha... i've finished knitting the scarf..wow..it's very beautiful ... it contains 4 types of colour.. dark brown, cofee, mixed color of white and baige and baige colour... hahahaha... you'll understand if you see it..hehehe... it's really nice oh.. though it's a bit too wide .. the lenght is okay though.. it sure keeps you warm.... hahhaha... too bad the scarf i'm going to give it to someone soon.. i'm gonna miss it... hmm... come to think of it.. i'll make one for myself later when i'm free..hehhee.. for christmas use.. too bad m'sia don't have winter if not it will be very usefull... oh ya... i'm learning how to knit a hat now.. ohh... very excited to see the results.. this would be much faster cause it only consists of 2 cotton wool...hehehehe.. the colour of the hat also suits the previous scarf.. of course it's to be presented to the same person lor... that's why the scarf and hat is so secocok hehehehe..