HE CALLED AGAIN

I received a call from this long-time-no-call-fren. We knew each other thru the phone when he called the wrong number... He has not been calling me for quite some time already and I thought that he has forgotten about me.,,

He called me tonite. When i saw his number appeared , i was wondering why he called.. at first he gave me 2 miss call and then he sms me.. asking me to call him... so i did.. then later he hung up and used another telephone to call me.. the number is started with 06-9XXXXXXX and i asked him where he is.. he said he is in Perlis... doing some job thing... he said that his jobs needs to run around alot.

We chatted about half and hour and then he need to hung up cause he need to fetch her gf to eat supper... after i hung up it's already 3.35 am... it was late.. yeah... he normally called late at nite geh...

what did we talk about is some few silly things.... maybe he is bored again so he called me while waiting for the time to go out with her gf... I asked about her gf and he told me that her gf look a bit like Ayumi Hamasaki.. and i laugh.... He told me he is serious and i just say, "Yah Yah..."

Also he ask me whether i'm attached or not... and when i told him.. no.. he ask me why.. so i gave some reasons .... he also asked me whether want to come out and see him (he ask in an uneasy tone) .. and i quickly rejected... the reason i gave him is that i dun really know him that well and i can't just come out to meet a strangers that i just knew thru a few conversation on the phone... I just told him that i'm being cautious... he said i must be a pretty girl, that's y i'm scared... and i told him that i'm fat.. (and that is the fact)... he said nvm... i just laugh..

funny thing is that he still remember a bit of my details ... and some conversation we had talked about last time.. he also mentioned that he would not forget his frens coz frens are forever... he will call them once in a while... (so i guess that's why he called me)

anyway... i dun mind to have someone to chat for once a while.. but I still think that it will take me ages to meet up someone that i knew thru the phone or net... hahaha.. but talking to him also quite farnie geh.. coz he only speak mandarin... and he knew a bit of cantonese only.. so once in a while he will speak cantonese.. and the tone is quite funny or when he pronounce it wrongly. Imagine that I dun understand so much about mandarin... but we can chat about 30 minutes. We need extra time to digest each others sentence.. so can say that the chat is about 15 minutes only.. lol...

he said he will call again some other time.. but i guess that some other time must be late at nite as well.. and also might be after a year then only i receive his call... weird fren i have here.. but i dun really trust all the things that he said... cause i never really can tell who the person he is... but doesn't mind to have a chat fren once in a while... i think he will be the first and the last... coz i will never let myself to knew a person thru the phone anymore... it's just a bit ridiculous to me... so this is the last i guess... lol...

2 Funny Dreams last nite

Well, how should i began... haiz...

last nite i went to yean ching's church for a concert. and then it was a good one... it's been a long nite and i felt tired also.. hehehe... maybe the tiredness cause these two funny dreams

First Dream

I dream about a college fren.. and then can't remember much what happen but somehow he's like express his feelings for me and then dunno why i accepted him... and then we've been like bf and gf like for one day... after that i accidentally told my other 3 college frens about it and then when my bf(in dreams) found out about it, he was so mad... and broke up with me.... duh!!!! what a weird dream rite.... the reason of the break up is bcoz i told my fren about our relationship. and the funny part is that the relationship ended for a day.. hmm... but in the dream i didn't felt hurt of the break up ... maybe bcoz in reality i dun have feelings for him and then i was too shocked of the reason of his break up.. lol... i woke up for a while by the shock in the middle of the nite and fell back to sleep.. guess what... second dream comes up.

Second Dream

Well this is a more funny dream... well i can't remember much also about the dream liao... hahaha.. it's like sum sort of a continuous episode from the first dream... i broke up with my bf liao.... and dunno why everyone pity me so much and come to comfort me... and i was trying hard to explain that i'm OKAY about the break up thing.... lol... omg... and then this fren of mind came over to me and bring me out for dinner and watch movie just to help me to forget about the sad things. and by the time he fetched me home.... he explain that it dusn't matter that the guy doesn't cherish me coz, he will... and i was like shock again maybe bcoz i didn't expect this words will come out of his mouth... (Okay, this dream is getting weird.. i know deep inside that i was dreaming yet i want to know what he will say next, so i refuse to wake up) so then he express his feelings for me ... and dunno why, once again i accepted it... (maybe want to know what happen if i do..hahaha) and sumwhere down the road , sumthing happen... can't remember much.... the guy dump me... and the reason why he does that is because he has no more feelings for me... well... at least this reason is more acceptable than the first one guar.... so i woke up after the dream.

So two relationships in one nite....make me more tired... ehmm... and two also ended breaking up at the end... is this dream trying to warn me better not to start a relationship or i will end up being dump... lol... weird and funny dream... after the dream i can't stop laughing... so i want to share with u ppl about this funny dream.. let u guys have some laugh too ler... yeah..and dun ask me about the names of the dream-bfs... coz i won't tell... lol....let u dream tonite and see if u can find out who is my ex-dream-bfs..... well i sure hope that my first relationship dun end for a day(just like what happen to my first dream).... i mean..welll.... i dun want to create a new fastest break-up record. lol... omg... haiz -_-"

Incident in LRT..

Today on the way home in the LRT there was no sits left...well there is, but not enuf to squeeze my butt in. So I took my usual nice standing-spot. Half way through the journey I felt bored and take a view around the LRT. I saw one woman (auntie!!!), she was eating fruits (dun ask me what fruit...didn't care much). Hmm... for those who don't know, we are not allowed to eat in the LRT.

That can be forgiven but another thing is that the way she sat. She sat like sideways.. cause she want to take a nice view of the outside scenery..duh... (which is only something so bored i looked at like 6 times a week). And because she sat that way.. she is like taking 2 seats with her butt... omg...

and then there were more ppl coming in and her butt won't budge a milimeter. nvm... nobody cares for a seat.. after a while there are some more ppl came in.. and there's one malay lady notice there was a little space for her tiny butt so she squeeze in... yet.. the fat-butt-auntie still refuse to move herself to sit properly... dunno whether she notice it or not.... coz that pity malay lady is sitting in a way that only half her butt is on the sit. aiks.... then some more ppl came in and the malay lady try to squeeze in a bit.. FINALLY... that auntie FELT someone beside her and she sat properly... how can ppl be so selfish.. oh my... it's a chinese auntie... well i think she is chinese....she look a bit malay too... well.. who bother... duh...

some ppl just can't be more considerate and think for others. well there are some more incidents in the LRT about inconsiderate ppl i came across but.... talking about it will only make me feel more boiled up... lol... okie ler... hope u ppl out there treat ppl nice too.. just like me.. hehehe.. joking only.... all my fren are nice ppl geh... *Wink* ;)

PRIDE....

Last Sunday, I went to church and the pastor is talking about pride... ohh... u ppl must be turning away or going to close this page after reading the first line.. but i'm gonna continue anyway...hmm...

He mentioned that everyone got pride inside them... oh.. u think u don't have it? well, have u ever thought or feel that someone u know is so proud and that u don't like it so much? If u felt that be4, means u are a proud person too.. lol... i gave a sheepish smile after hearing the pastor said that... well, the pastor looked at me and chuckle at the same time.. (erm, i think he is looking at me guar.. coz there're only like 10 ppl there)

He said, even u have 0.01 % of pride in u also means that u are a proud person... and pride can destroy u alot... well... i cut the story short ler... dun want u ppl think that i'm repeating a sermon... he said.. .pride is the foundation of sin... it is very secret that you can't see it in u... it can only be revealed to u.. (means others can see it in u but u can't see it ur pride). Pride can mix with other sin and turns out ugly.

He also mentioned that :

one cannot encourage and at the same time envied or jealous.
one cannot care and at the same time despise
one cannot love and at the same time deceive (i think i use the wrong word..but it's something like that..can't remember exactly)

why am i saying this things.. coz i agree with him...and i've been thru those 3 things..haiz... and i learn sumthing out of it. i should loose out my pride. i'm not sure how much i got.. but sometimes i do feel it inside me... haiz... and it's not a good feeling.... coz i dun want to be a proud person.. T_T.. i'll try my best... let me know if i am one... haiz...

LONELINESS COMES AND GOES

Loneliness come to visit me lately... it's like it will come and go after some time... and i dun like it to visit me at all... sometimes when i online.. there were a list of frens... and i'm too used to wait for ppl to come and bug me... so i wait.. and nobody msg.. lol... and when sometimes i try to msg.. but no reply... how sad...

once in a while i might get into conversation.. yet i still feel some loneliness inside.. maybe i need some one that is phisically beside me to chase the loneliness away. some one that can bring laughter to me, some one who will make me happy, some one that i could lean on and talk to ... someone that can be there for me when i feel lonely... some one... where is that some one...

i keep on repeating the same thing everyday and i know i need some changes in the daily routine to make my life more colourful... hangging out with frens...? yeah i wish too...but everyone is busy...(what an excuse) when frens call... i'm busy... when i'm free no calls... lol... somehow very hard to find a time that both me and my frens are free to talk and hang out... *Sigh*

I told ppl i'm busy, but i'm not that busy actually.... everyday go back and watch tv and play online games or chat with net frens... seems like so free... lol

haiz... i miss... i miss... happiness and i wish ... i wish... loneliness will go away soon.... *sob sob*

okie dokie for this boring blog... nitez and muaks